Christmas Blues

First of all, Merry Christmas Everyone!!! 

My Christmas was rather interesting. As an employee at Walgreens, (oh the joy) my store was open, but since it wasn't a 24 hour store we were only open from 8 am to 6 pm. Which wasn't too bad, plus they had split the day into 2 groups those who would work the first 5.5 hours and those who would work the next 5.5 hours. I got the second shift.

Which meant I was fortunate enough to spend the morning with friends and family, unwrapping presents and then going to our close family friends for pancake breakfast. 

I didn't ask for much this Christmas, because there wasn't much I needed or even wanted; meaning all I wanted was clothes and a pair of boots. So by no means did I have a bad Christmas, despite having to work it really wasn't bad.

Anyway, the real reason I wanted to write today was because lately I've found myself wanting to avoid Facebook, especially my news feed. Crazy right?! 
Maybe it's because I'm lonely, or feel like all my friends are getting married, or engaged, or having babies, or even just got a boy friend... Ya know those cute Christmas pictures they take together kissing in front of the tree etc.

But not me. Nope I'm still single and dates are far and few between. Probably because I'm always working or doing something. But I can't take it anymore. The news feed is driving me crazy. I'm becoming that lonely, bitter person who is always busy working. :/ and that is so not me!

Well in attempt to fix the problem, I'm trying to acquire a new job due to the fact that work is wondering when I'm leaving for BYU... not realizing that I'm not leaving because I was not accepted for the winter semester. New job = less busy??? maybe...

At times it is great being single and others it is plain awful like when your ex's randomly to all text you and inform you that you are missed. And you find yourself reminding your brain and heart that there is a reason they are an ex. And no matter how lonely you get not to get back with them. 
But the holidays are especially difficult trying to remember that, especially when all you want to do is cuddle up with someone, or just to give gifts to that special someone. But you can't because you are all alone. And the "couples holidays" are all back to back... Christmas, New Years, and then Valentines day... what the heck! 

Or the worst case of loneliness, at least for me, is when you are crushing hardcore on this one person, go on a date with this person and they are even more amazing... only to find out that their schedule is even busier than yours and that dates will be far and few between.... and my brain tells me that I might as well be single.. UGH!!!

The struggles of being a hardworking 20 year old... working full time and going to school full time all while wanting to have a social life....  

Then I try to remind myself that in the end things will all work out and that what I give up now, will balance out in the end... But the end looks really far away... much like a race or a marathon, I feel like I've either just barely made it halfway or am not quite there and the finish line is out of sight and a long way off.... 

Happy Halloween Everyone!

Well, Hey guys. So sorry. Life has been crazy. This last week I was recently suffering from exhaustion, deprived of sleep and over worked. So what to do when this happens? Turn the phone off or in my case I simply hide it under my pillow on silent while I try and so the glow doesn't interfere. Turn off the iPod, the TV, the laptop, etc  and go to bed. This wasn't working. So now what? Well the next day I picked up some ZzzQuil. Does it work?? I don't know. I actually was able to finally sleep. (and there was much celebration!) 

So what's new? There is a giant hole in the backyard where the pool is going and they are actually moving right along. The kitchen is in pieces and everything is in boxes. 

Oh and Today I might be finding out if I got accepted into BYU?! I'm so Nervous! But still no news yet.

So I hope you all have a super safe Halloween. 

Introduction

Well hey people :) My name is Shari. not Sherri, Shari like Sharpie without the the "p" sound. And for those of you how are interested in what life is like as me. I'm barely 5ft tall, 20 years old, living at home with all 4 of my siblings ranging from ages 18 to 11 years old, taking 18 credits this semester in college, and working full time. (trying to graduate with my associates this semester, and transfer to a college/university)

That sounds absolutely insane right?

I don't think so for me this is normal. It's always been this way. Then add all the sports and activities each one of my siblings are involved in from choir, student council, drama club, band, baseball, softball, soccer, football. We almost always have something going on.

Still sound crazy? probably, but none of this would be possible without my parents, who constantly support us and drive us to where we need to go, and pushing us to do better.

Oh, did I mention I'm Mormon? Explains the big family right?

Don't get me wrong though I'm not perfect, and I promise not to be all preachy. I have nothing wrong with what you believe, I've always been very open to listening and understanding other people and their religion, and I have no problem taking about mine and helping others to understand, or clarify. But anyway, Welcome to Living A Life as Shari. 
Where you can see just how I deal with everything, and manage school, work, and somewhat of a social life. It's not easy but it's my life. and it's not perfect, but I manage.